To tired in my mind and basically I just don't really care anymore. Days come and go now. Been through this over the years and it never changes. A purgatory for heart and soul. The mind stays to watch and wonders when this will end. I am beginning to think now it never will. How many times can a person go through this in a lifetime?...The answer is out there somewhere. Time..My old friend once now an enemy it seems...We have to become friends if I am to survive this with my sanity intact.