Thursday, May 26, 2011

....once again..

.....Really feeling odd tonight. Freedom comes with a price and that price being knowing not what to do. Of reminding yourself the field has changed and wont never be the same. Having something there that's constant and no its no more. So much of my life revolved around a "what if' and so I built my life, sadly enough, around a possibility. A possibility. Nothing promised and who can I blame other than myself. So now we are back at square one. Watching, wondering what will be next. The mind tries to prepare itself for the journey, the heart silent, numb and for now uncaring. Numbness is good for the time being. I just have to figure out where to go from here..Never thought I would be here like this...

....once again.

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