.....landscape has changed and frankly I have no idea where I am at. Having guides from the past, experiences to fall back on, help me in moments when uncertainty sets in but now? Clueless. This time I don't need another line of "what ifs" or "what could have beens"....Some thing is different and I a trying to grasp, trying to place it into a context that I can understand. Something hidden in plain sight it seems. Glimmer of warmth shines through for a instant, retreating behind a smile...It's been a while since I have been here..