Never give up...

Finality....Reality....

Tonight a couple of things are on my mind. One being that the time for this blog is at an end, the other is how to bring it to a close. I could sit here and try and use poetic words but they wouldn't do this work justice. 394 posts have been created due to love, losing and finding only to lose again.... Below is the first entry here from December 2007
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Once and again....

So where do I start? A familiar place from a long ago memory. Wondering if I am the wiser this time. Feelings run the length of my mind and chaos is a daily event. Trying to balance sanity but pulled into two directions. Feelings of old of "what if" and consumed by the reality of "what is." Waiting for movement over the last weeks but nothing. A smile, a loving gesture, nothing more. Rebuilding of ruins that will remain such. Ruins. Turning a brave face to everyone around me but dying a little bit each day. Hiding behind a smile and camera lens. Wearing despair as a cloak. Wondering "Why?" To many questions and to many answers, all of which dig deeper into open wounds. Time will pass at its on whim as will the healing that will come. I have to walk this way. No choice but to go through. Remembering the heartaches and loves past. Finding... losing. I am not ready...Soul seeking shelter. So many words held back for so long....no more. ......December 1st 2007
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I have lived much and loved even more since the day this entry was written. Stolen kisses and loves that were never to be realized but held onto, hoping to feel if only for a moment that which I lost long ago. Now I have no need to try to recapture that which was lost. It is found and greatly cherished above all. I haven't blogged much due to the fact I have not the feelings that once drove me. How can I write such when the heart and mind sing. The wedding is soon, next month and I have a wonderful woman to accompany me on my photo road trips and so many other journeys in this lifetime. Truly a gift from God she is....
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I invite you to visit me over on the sister blog www.someonesaidhello.blogspot.com and see where my writings go from there. I really want to thank all of you that have stopped by over the years and left comments and encouragement. You have been true friends indeed over the time spent writing here..Ironically I find myself saying "goodbye" once again...but the real story is now just beginning....Shall We?............

....blessed.

Time shall tell as it has for many years. Sorry for the lack of updates as October is a very busy month for me. Now its even busier in more ways.

...blessed.

...watching.

So much has happened in the last few months. My photography is beginning to sell online and session work is picking up. Its also October and time for a Wayfarers journey once again. I planned for a new area to scout and explore, but somehow I feel the calling to return a final time to places already visited, already deep in my heart. With this in mind so many locations now beg my attention as the Fall colors once again prepare pay me a visit. I feel this will be the last time I see them through the eyes that I possess now. Making this journey all the more special and from the heart.

...watching.

...yet again.

Slowly finding time and my voice once again. Have been wondering if my time over the last few years was a wasted effort or not. Sometimes I think I have been focused on one thing so much I have failed to see everything else. Sort of like "cant see the forest because of all the trees". Expecting love to fit in a neat little box and to look and be a certain way. This was nothing more than me staying in my comfort zone and expecting nothing more. Forbidding anything that didn't fit a certain criteria to enter into my life. Limiting what love should be is the best way to put it. In my defense love has always seem to be a certain way, from its approach and time spent but then again the end result has always been the same. Guess another epiphany has paid me a visit.

... yet again.