...where to from here.

 ...another day faded into evening and another day of uncertainty at an end. Nightfall brings another tapestry of remembrance and how that time has slipped away from me. I have no anchor and the compass spins, having lost my true north. Regret, wishing apologies could be passed on and just maybe forgiveness, if any, obtained but time doesn't allow for this. Sometimes you don't get to share the enlightenment of your wrongs trying to be made right. Somethings can't be fixed nor need to be revisited, some regret you just have to live with. Years wasted in not knowing what I really wanted nor what I was doing. A perpetual train wreck that never ceased, creating chaos that would revisit me later in life. The outcome? Being well beyond solitude and into being alone. For almost 20 years this blog, like me, has been a work in progress. What I thought was progress was nothing more than me stumbling through relationships, friendships to now find myself in this self made world of mind games of middle age remorse. Even with all that's been said and done there remains a small amount of hope. 

 

...where to from here.