waiting..

Days go by and my focus slowly returns as well as balance. Something is missing still and for now I ignore this and push it down deeper not having wonder what it is. This buys me a little time for now. Keeping the mind busy and thoughts occupied but this can only last for a season as the heart grows weary of the loneliness at eveningfall. Of it having no kindred spirit to share thoughts and ideas. The mind tries to comfort all it can but in the end the heart refuses to listen and begins to go down the paths of what was and what could have been, dragging the mind along for the journey. Sadly I am included in this and cant be a innocent bystander. Fine get it out of the system and lets move on shall we..