...This month has been a blur with corporate photo work and my regular work. Keeping the mind busy has been a good therapy of sorts, but it doesn't give much time for it to keep an eye on the heart, rebellious child that it is. But for now the heart remains quiet, not giving any indications of what its thinking, wanting....nothing but silence. Calming but also disturbing in a way. Ever since being wounded earlier this year its has stopped giving of itself, and in a way it become more and more reclusive. Content to watch and not dare chance contact with the outside world. Cant blame it one bit. I have even given it free reign to see if it needs more freedom of sorts. It stays put watching, not moving, almost not even caring. At a loss of what to do for now save time, patience and the need to keep moving forward. Moving faster and faster it seems with destination unknown
...life in a blur.
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In theory you may have touched on one of life's lessons.
Contentment and patience over time will breed a closer look at reality. It's kind of like, "take time to slow down and smell the roses".... Without knowing it, your guarded heart takes in all around it and keeps what it needs while throwing out the trash.
Keep on, keeping on Rick.
:)
Rick, as much as I hate that our lives are parrelling in this heart mending business, I am so grateful for your descriptive words. In some way, it helps to read this state of "heart" in text and know that someone else is experiencing this time of waiting. For me it is as if I am able to allow my heart the freedom to venture out, but it is content to sit by the window watching. Whether that is indication of a memory still too fresh with pain/fear or wise contemplation of not repeating the same trust mistakes...I honestly don't know. But I still pray that God continues the healing in both of our lives. Thank you again for your words. Sarah
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